Swamped

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It has been a day of paddling fast in a chicken-wire canoe. In fact, much of the week has been like that. Sales conference prep, plus the other stuff…I didn’t realize until Tuesday that I was still a zombie from Chicago, so I tried to get some extra rest Tuesday and Wednesday. “Extra” being a relative term for me.

It has been one of those weeks when I start thinking my two greatest sources of comfort are Scripture and a good bottle of wine.

Yet this morning, I had one of those “life goes on” moments in the shower. Last night, a lady most everyone I know has been praying for went on to be with God. When I found out, I came to a complete stop in prayer, and immensely grateful for her husband’s perspective, as he wrote to let everyone know: “She’s left me for a better man.”

This morning, the weather guy still told the day’s forecast, and my daughter still needed a breathing treatment and suctioning. I got up at 5 for her first round of meds, then made sure she was comfy for the bus ride at 7. I stood in the shower later, thinking of loss and gain and continuity, sunshine and shadow, and the mystery that is God’s plans for our lives. We can discern the best we can, pray for wisdom and guidance, but we still see only through that “glass darkly.”

This is why, as frantic as I can get about too much to do and missed deadlines and occasional cost overurns, I remember that it would all go on without me. Perspective. All we can do is the best we know how, trust, and pray.

I’ll blog more this weekend. It’s a “mommy weekend” when I’ll be home the entire time with Rach. I’m actually looking forward to it. Maybe my living room will even get cleaned.

Or maybe not…

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