Random Wanderings

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First, a little unfinished business. I promised someone I’d post the link to the interview with the Pirates screenwriters that I referred to below. I run into a lot of screenwriting interviews, mostly because it’s a major interest of mine. I discovered, however, that not everyone who might be interested does. Anyway, that link is at Box Office Mojo.

On to other bits and pieces. First, apologies to those folks to whom I owe emails. I’m getting there, slowly but surely. The month of May left a dark fog behind when it left, and with it a streak of anger that I spend a great deal of time praying about. Even my sitters have noticed the shift in personality. While the number of people with whom I’m furious grows daily, the majority of the anger is at my own recent missteps – I’ve made enough mistakes over the past few weeks, on a personal level, that I feel like an idiot – and an arrogant one at that. All I really want to do is withdraw and avoid all human contact. Not forever – just to recover and find my feet again.

I cannot, however, do that. There is no time. Unfortunately for me, I take promises to complete certain tasks seriously enough that I will keep working and trying to make those deadlines.

But I don’t let the pity party go too far. Yes, I have too much to do, not enough time to physically do it, and too many interruptions to get much done in one sitting – but aren’t most people working on jobs like that? Hasn’t that become an epidemic for a lot of folks today?

So the self-pity about current tasks has to go. The problem is that it leaves behind a sincere and overwhelming feeling that I’m not doing what God has planned for my life. So I focus instead on my own advice: Trust Him. He sent Paul to Athens for a reason and a season – but not forever. For the moment, I am where He planted me.

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