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OK, Saturday.

The last six weeks or so have been truly awful for me professionally and personally. Mentally and physically. Why? I don’t know entirely, and going into a lot of whiny details wouldn’t be great for you or me. I know I’ve made some bad, really horrible choices, and I’m paying the consequences. I’m bottoming out in more ways than one.

For now, I have to look both around and UP. Really UP. Around at blessings and UP toward God.

Rachel is relatively healthy. It’s fall and the weather is roller coasting, which means her sinuses are playing havoc with her. But she’s coping, for the most part.

I reconnected with an old friend, which was a beautiful thing, and I have friends who’ve supported me all along the way. I couldn’t get through this without them. Fortunately for me, I have TRUE friends, who lift me up and tell me when I’ve been stupid. We all need friends who do not pull punches.

I have an agent interested in my work. This is a VERY good thing, and I hope to continue talks with her this coming week.

Even as most of my projects are winding down, I have another coming along. I’ve missed some deadlines, however, which adds stress and doesn’t help the physical issues I’m dealing with.

The bad choices I’m turning over to God for guidance and resolution. We all stumble. I went down hard this time, but there is always hope in Him.

There you have it in a nutshell, why I’ve been so long gone from the blog. Mostly this spot is for sharing my writing more than my personal life, but occasionally, you’re going to get the emoting. It’s all part of the journey. Vulnerability and strength, hope and despair have to go hand-in-hand or we get out of balance and our true vision blurs.

Here’s a prayer for clarity, for all of us.

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